Everyone keeps saying "Good Riddance 2012" cause the year was shit for many, i guess i must be the only one dreading 2013 and how much worse it will get. I just want to go back. I am now 3 months away from Loken's 1st Birthday Angelversay, i cant believe how much time has passed, it feels like an eternity, but it also feels like yesterday. How can i have possibly spent almost a year with out my baby boy? Its so surreal. I don't want to believe it.
I am so very lost. And so very tired. And so very very sad. I don't know how much longer i can keep going like this.
I wonder if i was the only one crying my heart out as i stood outside watching the fire works welcoming in the new year...
Not that anyone gives a shit anymore since everyone is sick of me being sad and thinks i should over my sons death.
Fuck off 2013, i don't want to see you.